Podcaster. It is part of my identity. It has been for over year now. When I take on a label like that, I wear it with pride and go all in on it.
I've been thinking though, if I'm no longer a podcaster than who am I?
My brain:
"Someone that doesn't know what they want"
"Someone that isn't serious about what they're doing"
"A nobody because this is how I became a somebody"
A little harsh huh? I would never say that to a friend or family member, so why am I saying it to myself? I've recognized its time for little more grace, and a lot less judgement.
If I'm no longer a podcaster, it doesn't mean I don't know what I want, I'm not serious about what I'm doing, or I'm a nobody because this is what made me a somebody.
It maybe took a global pandemic and the whole world stopping, but I realized that SOMEBODY had to make this great thing and that SOMEBODY was me.
I did that, it was me. That means I was a somebody before all of this. If that is the case, maybe that somebody can create or be good at something else too.
So I'm doing some re-wiring. I'm shifting from this harsh, negative self-talk. If I'm no longer a podcaster, than…
I AM SOMEBODY WHO IS GROWING.
Plain and simple. Maybe I should paint that on a canvas, or sew it on a pillow as my sisters would tell me after every cliché I say. Maybe I’ll put that in my Instagram bio as I don’t have a better way to describe myself right now. I'm somebody who is growing.
I think back to long before I started the podcast. In college when we had to create personal mission statements for ourselves, the one I created for myself was to…
DIVERSIFY MY EXPERIENCES TO ALLOW MYSELF TO GROW.
Maybe 22-year-old Claire was onto something there. Try some new things here and there to see where it takes you.
So if you're wondering where I'm at with re-wiring my brain, I'm taking a break from being a podcaster and trying this blogger thing. Maybe I'll come back to it, maybe I won't.
Right now though, along with blogging, I'm also embracing being an interior decorator making the coziest work from home space, a nail artist trying a new color almost every day, a yogi that uses Ohio's humidity to supplement a hot studio, and a nightly cribbage champion (although my boyfriend may beg to differ).
So I'll be here blogging about different mindfulness practices I'm trying, books/podcasts/people that inspire me, epiphanies I've had while growing, and lifestyle changes I've made to keep me centered in an ever-changing world.
But who knows, maybe I'll pivot from that to blogging about gardening and running. I'll just keep growing and keep you on your toes.